April 28th, 2004

05:50 pm I'm sorry to move, kids, but I am. I've grown past this name, and managed to secure the one I wanted. I need the change, and I think this'll be good for me. _smittenxkitten please change over. I don't think I'll upload here anymore. I love you. Dangerouskitten, signing off Current Mood: new

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04:53 pm - iloveyou.dontforget. post a memory of me in the comments. it can be anything you want. then post this to your journal and see what people remember of you. Current Mood: okay

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04:04 pm You are all the way I wish I felt Absolutely Beautiful Current Mood: drained

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April 27th, 2004

10:14 pm - "She will be loved" Do you know the feeling in your stomach when you think about something that makes you feel beautiful? He kissed me. Does anyone else has a urge to touch the place he last touched you? I can't keep my fingers off my lips. Everyone is telling me he'll break my heart. But if it's bad enough to cry over, then it will good enough to feel that way. Don't worry about me. I love you all. Current Mood: loved

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April 26th, 2004

08:34 pm - "Sunday morning rain is falling, Steal some covers share some skin" You know what? I feel good. This whole exercise thing, while small-scale right now, is really working for me. My diet changed emensely, and I'm working out every night. Imagine how much better it'll be when I get my bike out and going, or over the summer when we go down and I can walking and run on the beach? I mean, I just feel good. I feel tighter, fitter. I know it's slow going, it will be for a while, but maybe because I think I can do it this time I'm imagining a difference. It's too easy to imagine I look better, or that a shirt fits looser. It's not true yet, but it will be. I promise to myself it will be. And lookit this; harry potter on may 9 on 7; including...what's this??? Ten Minute Preview of POA???? I am so fucking there. I was there before, when it was good good looking Grint, but 10 fuckin' minutes of POA? Shit yes. A good night to make up for a sad following day. In darkness she is all I need Current Mood: good Current Music: Maroon 5

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06:36 pm - "Tap on my window knock on my door" Is it possible to get hiccups of happiness? Fucking AOL. Three goddamn days and all it took to get back online was helping me find 8.0 on a disc and installing that? Fuck, I could have been told that on fucking friday, you bastards. But I am nonetheless glad to have an internet connection. How long this AOL thing will last I do not know, so if I change, I will notify as many as I can though email and here. Gloomcookie747, however, will continue to be my name, as it's my AIM name. Ha. Got one over on ya, AOLBitches. Annnnnnnnnyway. So to-day was good, for I saw Ian and was kissed in a sweet big brother sort of gesture. I miss miss miss him. Hope to see him more. I took my meap test, part one. Eaaaasy. Next will be even easier. Before I that I was kissed, and not in a big brotherly kindof way. See that shit there if you really wanna hear it. ( So who wants more Courtney Drama? ) Current Mood: Loved Current Music: Maroon 5 plus D12

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April 22nd, 2004

05:47 pm - *My singing terribly* "OH, Mandy, you came and you gave without takin" I was singing all day. I am pure sunshine, dammit, and I couldn't tell you why. There is utter anger over AI(which I get angry over, and then feel the anger receed because it's only a show(And I think it's a rigged one at that) and the ones with real talent are going to get where they want to go. Jennifer had a nice voice when she wasn't being a diva, and she'll probably get a contract. Eitherway, I think she's just as pleased to be working on her pleasure cruise, and she probably meets better people there, too), and there's terrible things happening all around, but that's always the state of the nation when I'm on an upscale. I'm used to it, but hopefully that I can be happy, the horrible cynic that I am, might at the least make someone else laugh(For a huge dork am I, of course). The beautiful people I know inspire wonderful feelings. Today was lovely, though. Second hour was utterly enjoyable, even with the stupid meap practice(Esp. since I got 11/15 on my 15 minute roughdraft- that's pullin' it off Justin style(and I only did it his way because I was talking to him when I should've been working...*whistle*)), and jewelry made me really happy; I felt like those people I admire, who make complete fools of themselves and don't care, because when I think about it, I made a fool of me(And of Jenn; sorry dear), but I didn't know that then, cause I didn't care. It was fun, wasn't it? I enjoyed it. Had a great lunch(A rough spot or two, but that's okay); enjoyed a lot of people's company, and so such is well. And tonight I'll be fixing my jeans. w00t! *Still me* You Kissed me and Stopped me from Shakin' *I could make him do more than stop shakin'....whoops, Hormones down* Current Mood: happy

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03:34 pm Do you know what it feels like when the anger you have for something dissolves? I am sorry, even if you don't believe it Current Mood: good

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April 21st, 2004

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08:04 pm - "I'll still glow" Do you know how sexy my hair is when it's wet? Very sexy. I + wetness of hair = Yum. Wow. Where did that confidence come from? Why can't it spread further? Like to my face or body? o well. No sadness. Today was good. I got along with people I do not usually get on with, and was unusually productive, and happy. See, cause, in first hour I got a lot done, and then someone waited to walk with me. I know that it's kinda pointless or stupid, but it's so sweet. So sweet. I need sweetness. And we had fun in forth hour, even though grose fuckin' babysat our table. Why are we targets? Grrrr. No. No anger. today was good. I'm really very happy about today. And I dyed my hair! I have red bits near the front that turned out teriffically(Is that right? oops) and wonderfully. and Seth Green is on That 70's show. Squee! I just wish I could make everyone feel this right now. I'm so pleased. I send out my love, ducklings. I wish I could hug you all and kiss your cheeks, but for now I can only send out //\\Affection//\\ I love you guys, alright? flat out adore you. Don't forget, especially when I seem crabby. All the people in my life mean a great deal to me, which is a side effect of tragedy, but this one is a good one. Sweet dreams, jelly beans Current Mood: thankful Current Music: Nothing is upbeat enough in my head, cept idol songs.

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April 19th, 2004

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April 18th, 2004

12:49 am I am so chilled right now, watching a bootleg Rainbow bright dvd. Is it just me or is Starlight the most uptight drag-queen actin' horse ever? Yum. I love old cartoons. don't you? Current Mood: silly Current Music: Rainbow bright theme

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April 16th, 2004

12:27 am - "We come from the land of the ice and snow..." Oh yes, my very first ring tone, and it makes me all head-bangy. I wish I had been rasied on Hard rock. I love Motown, but I wish I knew a lot more fuckin' Led Zeppelin. hammer of the gods Current Mood: excited Current Music: Led Zeppelin

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April 15th, 2004

08:33 pm Holy cow. I was kinda scared there for a moment; I got through easy fo JS and I wasn't able to vote as much as usual, and I worried. But, farewell JPL; he did have fun, I will say that. Why are their goodbye performances always better than the ones that got them kicked off? See, there's that voice I liked in the first place, and he's havin' more fun! If he'd sung like that last night, I mighta voted for the little bugger! Almost seems like maybe he *wanted* to go home. That was like a celebratory dance, man. Still utterly happy. Current Mood: relieved Current Music: JSiv- crocodile

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April 14th, 2004

11:23 pm Utterly ganked from my new friend, giftogab I want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions, no more no less(Edit; if you want more, why not? Just make it under 50, please). Ask me anything you want. Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you anything. Will you? Lieben sie mich? Current Mood: curious Current Music: Stevens yuuuum

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07:23 pm - Spoilers for lots. Read somethin' else. Okay, let me start with the fact that there is not feeling like sitting in a new stadium seated theater watching a Smith movie(See way below) and eating Pocky. O yes o yes o yes. Let me lead on with Kill Bill; Vol. one; Hot shit!(Look out for spoilers; go rent it or get a decent internet connection, damnit- see it!) Tarantino has secured me, and I love it. The story was compelling enough to hook me for Vol. two, and the cinematography was incredible- The colours were absolutely gorgeous and popping. The deaths were artistic(See our final shots of Gogo Yubari and the straight bloodlines with O-ren) and the animatic for O-ren's story was absolute genius. I want to kiss the fingertips of that animator. I want to kiss the fingertips of Quentin Tarantino. Beautiful. Also, rented The Eye, finally. Like many(Many being two) of the orignal Japanese/Asian horror films I see, billed as terrifying, only filled with jumps and slight overnight paranoia. Unlike many(Again being two), I want to own this one. Despite the jumps I did experience(Which at the time were tremendeus(Help?). No one does a ghost like the Asian culture; Jesus, when Mun(the BEAUTIFUL main character- I am in loooove) is learning to write, she is charged by a girl demanding to know why she's sitting in her chair. I saw that girl in my dreams last night(When I wasn't dreaming of a boy looking suspisously like the lead Male character, Wah lo(Hoooooooly hell was that boy gorgeous. He was even better looking without hair), uncool. But it packed a lot of story( a very good and involving story) and a LOT of emotion. I cried verily. Everyone should see it. I want it. This break has been boring. Movies save my life. ( And now, Cue the Music(Maybe spoilers; Jersey Girl) ) Current Mood: pleased Current Music: Kevin's lovely voice

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02:55 pm - "Now I'm a believer, I couldn't leave her if I tried" I think it might be a little bit crazy of me to even admit this. I just bought 3 dollars worth of Pocky at my local Oriental grocery. Sure, it doesn't sound like much, but when it's 4 for a dollar, it turns into a plastic bag full of super addictive pocky. Hello, My name is courtney, and I'm addicted to pocky Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: Neil Diamond

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April 12th, 2004

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